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1/13/2003
So young and alot to deal with
Hi i was 16 and alone and wanted some attention, i needed to prove something and i was all confused, one night i was drunk and i know utink its the typical story and i spose it is, its not like i did this all the time, i never done it b4. My head was messed. Anyway about 4 months later i noticed the bumps and the thought crossed my mind straight away and id remembered someone warning me about that person b4. it took me a month to work up the courage to get it checked out and i got some cream which cleared them. I felt dirty, decieved i thought why me, why must i be punished for life...i still havnt had the virus all that long and sometimes i still ask why, i believe everything has a reason. I entered a relationship not long ago thinking it would be a short thing that i could do just to look normal...i felt id never have a relationship again. now its been 3 months and things are only getting better (emotionally) we do sexual stuff but i wont let him give me oral and i wont have sex with him, he doesnt know yet and i plan to tell him i spose when ive built enough trust between us, i know that might be trapping in a way but my whole life would ruined if everyone knew. im taking every procaution i can to stop it from spredding...at least until i can tell him. It has helped me though, made me realise who i used to be and what building relationships is all about, and how much diet can contribute to your overall health. I know i will live through this no matter what, but i cant help thinking that if i didnt have this virus my relationship could be 99% perfect.Comments:
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