A Virgin Turned Infectee

I've only had sex with ONE person. I am a 20 year old female, and I lost my virginity at the age of 18. I chose to have sex with the boy that I did because I love and trust him; HOWEVER, it was not until after I had sex with him that he chose to disclose the truth to me. He has a dirty past with a particular girl who used to be my friend. They slept together behind my back and were unprotected.(The affair took place before he and I were sexual.) They both assured me that they had been protected, and I believed them. Time passed: I maintained a friendship with him and have banished her from my life. After a long while, he and I were in a comfortable place again. The pain that he had previously caused was still quite palpable, but I was also in love with him. We had sex in December of 2001 for the first time. In June of 2002, I had warts. I trusted him, and I was deceived. I didn't know what they were, and all too harshly reality became evident. I have so much internal rage and no one to understand my hate. My friends that know are not a good way to vent my immense emotions because they just don't know how it feels. I'm dying to talk to someone who can seriously empathize with my undiminished plethora of emotion regarding my experience. I was straight up STABBED IN THE BACK, and it hurts me so deeply to this day.

Comments:

6/11/2003 -
Have you told him yet, if not you need
to.

6/14/2003 - Kate
HPV can be passed even if a person
wears a condom. So, he may be telling
the truth. Trust your instincts and
remember, HPV is very treatable and
it's believed that it may even leave
the body permanently once your immune
system catches up. I wish you lots of
love in your future!

8/15/2003 1:13:35 PM - amanda
yeah i can completely relate to your
experience. i fell deeply in love with
this guy and we dated for a year.
about 2 days after our one year
anniversary..i found out that i have
hpv. i was devastated and i tried to
get support from him. about a week
later i found out that he had been
cheating on me throughout the course of
our relationship. i feel betrayed and
angry. i am only 19..he was my
first...i have no idea how i am going
to get through this

12/14/2003 1:27:59 PM - Patrick

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