What have I done?

I am eighteen and gay. A couple months ago I got involved with a couple of guys who I have grown to love like family, and they have filled a huge void in my life. Last week, I found small bumps, and I thought immediately that it was HPV. Now the only thing I was worried about was not how I was going to deal with the disease, but instead, how I was going to deal with losing these guys as friends because I infected them with this and ruined their lives. One of them said they noticed the bumps and said that it might be HPV. When I saw that he was ok with it, I felt better. He also said that he "used to have them when he was young, but he is fine now" UMM from what ive read, you never actually get rid of it. I wonder If he gave them to me. It has only been about 5 months since I first saw him, and I am showing definate symptoms, but I wonder. I hope the other guy will be as understanding as he was. GOD I wish it WOULD have been them who gave it to me, then I wouldnt have to feel so guilty and worry about losing them. I am sorry to see that we are all so young and we share this horrible virus. But I am starting to believe that life is going to be ok, and I am making an appointment with my doctor this week to verify that it IS actually HPV. PLEASE if you ever wanna talk about anything, I would love to also. My email is onecrazywhiteboy@hotmail.com or my aol username is chriswhiteboy84

Comments:

8/17/2003 7:07:37 PM - dealing with it
First of all if he said he had symtoms
as a child that's a dead giveaway to
me. Do'nt feel so bad and blame
yourself, it is VERY possible that one
or both of them infected you if all of
you were sexuallly active. The symptoms
don't always show up so you never know.
I know the nigga I got it from didn't
have any symptoms.

9/21/2003 10:07:56 PM - cm
Thank you for your comment.

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