A little lost in life..

I am 22 years old and found out I had hpv in April. I actually found out I was pregnant about the same time I found out about the virus. Since my immune system was down from the pregnancy, the warts first appeared. I had actually had an abnormal pap the previous year, followed by a colposcopy; however, the doctor was foreign and was unable to explain to me that I had an std. I found out from a different (English speaking) doctor when I went in to get treated. I had no idea. What a blow to receive at age 22.. an unplanned pregnancy and an std all at once. I went through a series of cryotherapy treatments followed by aldara, which basically cleared the warts.. until the cream ran out. I have recently moved and haven't found a new clinic to go to and the warts are starting to return. I just transferred colleges and am trying to start a new life. I have met a really great guy out here, but I am so afraid to tell him. I feel like he will have nothing to do with me anymore. It is at the point where he probably thinks I am a little strange, because we mess around, but it always stops way before the pants come off. I haven't even told my best friend that I have hpv, only my last boyfriend and one other friend who also has it know. It is so hard to have no one to talk to, I feel so embarrased. I've thought about telling my Mom, but we haven't been close in so many years, I just don't feel comfortable. This disease consumes the majority of my thoughts. I am taking some vitamins to try to boost my immune system, but I really need to quit smoking. So much to deal with all alone. It has really helped to read all of the other postings out there, you are all such strong people. Best wishes.

Comments:

9/11/2003 10:45:25 PM -
I haven't told my best friend, and I
will probably never tell my mom, these
things are just too personal.I quit
smoking after one month of knowing I
had this.I feel better,and hopefully
it will help, it hasn't yet, but I
have oly quit for a month and 1/2.What
helped me quit was to think that
smoking is what the warts like, and I
didn't want to do anything that the
warts like, because I HATE the warts.
It worked for me, good luck, you'll
feel a lot better.

9/12/2003 6:26:47 PM -
Smoking kills your immune system
period. That definitely has to go.
And I would defintely start some
hardcore excercise too in order to hot-
rod your immune system. It certainly
can't hurt.

10/23/2003 8:38:12 PM -
Thank you for the advice. I still
haven't quit smoking, but everytime I
do I think about your posts. I think
it would be easier to quit without this
problem.. but now I am just making
excuses. I started tea tree oil today.

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