This morning I went into the doctors office b/c I was told my PAP came back abnormal. I was prepared to hear about cancer, but not about HPV. The nurse comes in shuts the door looks down at my chart and asks, did I mail you the info paplets on abnormal paps and HPV. My reply was no,she then says" well you'r test results showed signs of HPV". As I was taking ni this infomation my eyes started to fill with tears, and all I could say was "WHAT?". She then said the same stuff I'm sure she has said to thousands of other woman. Then she informed me I had to yet again climb up on the table and take my pants off for the Doctor,j ust like I had done three months ago. She informed me any questions I had I could ask the doctor when she came in.
SO I waited in the suddenly cold examining room with my bare butt on the table and paper blanket over my legs, waiting and crying and crying and waiting. The doctor came in and looked at me and gave me a speech that I did not understand and moved way to fast. She once again examned me and told me to secdual some type of apt. in four weeks.
When I had left the doctors office I relized what had happend and got incredibly upset. I did not get a chance to ask many question b/c I was rushed.
I've been with the same man for three plus years and never in my life had an abnormal PAP. I used condoms with every partner except him and he never used them. I know conodoms don't protect aganst HPV but my doctor seemed to think that was the problem.
After leaving the doctor I had to make a chocie and fast, what do I do about work? Should I go into today? Or should I sit at home and feel sorry for myself and think of a million mean things to say to my boyfriend when I talk to him?
Well I went to work and on my way in, my cell phone rang, in b/t sobs I saw it was my boyfriends work number. I picked it up and like all good guys knew somthing was wrong. So I told him we needed to talk but we would do it after work. "No No tell me now, its alright, blah blah blah" So I told him and I cried and he was in shcok, much like (I'm sure) what I felt in the doctors office, except he was sitting behind his desk and could not cry. He begain talking loundly, so I had to remind him he was at work.
We hung up, both upset and not really knowing what to do or say. Later today I checked my email and he had sent me a few links on HPV and I came across this web-site. I read the whole site and desided I should share my story. I think the hardest part of any of this (so far anyway) was telling my mommy. Telling my boyfriend was easy, b/c I knew some how it would be ok. But I had a hard time telling my mother (don't get me wrong I did not get out my cell phone and call everyone I know) but I am very close to my mother and when she asked how my doctors visit was I had to tell her, b/c I have to go back in every three months until my paps come back normal.
I think doctors could be more personal, it really hurt that the nurse did not look at my while she was telling me this information. It also hurt I was rushed out of there so quickly. I do after all have to pay money every time I see the docotr. She should take her time with me and really of given me a chance to take in the information.
I know I'll be ok even if me and my boyfriend break up, I know I have good friends and family who will support me through this. I just want to know now if it gets any worse, I mean are there any hidden things I don't know about? What are the sympotoms that are associated with it, just a abnormal PAP, or gental warts, or both? Can anyone answer this?
Comments:
5/13/2004 11:33:46 PM
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1whoknows
Your reaction is totally normal and unfortunately, so is your nurses. I went through like 4 doc until I found an awsome, sympathetic one. Really, this disease is like the common cold. Don't beat yourself up about you. Odds are in your favor that you'll have an abnormal pap for a while (contd)
5/13/2004 11:35:19 PM
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from above
and then it will go away. If you do get warts, that sux and is painful and requires the patience of an angel, but they go away as well. Then, your body pretty much killed off that strain of HPV. Keep in mind, if you don't have HPV its 'cause you arn't getting laid. Its no fun, but there are worse things. It GETS BETTER! Best wishes...
5/14/2004 7:55:29 AM
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estimates are that 75% - 90% of people get HPV at some point in their lifetime. You have to understand that, despite what you ant those around you believe, that it really is normal to get it in reality. Your nurse probably sees it 1000 times a day and its not a big deal to her which is why she was the way she was.
5/14/2004 7:56:33 AM
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You may want to find a different doctor that takes the time to answer questions and not just fly through as many patients in a day as possible.
5/14/2004 11:30:08 AM
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Jones
All of you giving "advice" are fucked up. Getting HPV is not normal and your stats are manufactured to make you freaks feel better about your fucked-up selves. Do everybody a favor and quit fucking! You're a DISEASE!!
5/14/2004 2:11:16 PM
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Very eloquent jones. If we are freaks for giving the information what does that make you? Surfing the web for STD relation message boards to post something like that? Get educated and get over it. No one is manufacturing anything, the information is out there. Start with the CDC if its not so much to ask that you get educated.
5/14/2004 2:13:00 PM
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same as above
if there are any freaks around here its you.
http://www.cdc.gov/std/HPV/STDFact- HPV.htm
5/16/2004 1:08:58 AM
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Jones is clearly not get laid
5/20/2004 6:27:09 PM
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sympathetic
hey this stuff happens.....i mean I think I may have HPV and I am on my way to getting checked out soon....when you get laid you'll realize anything can happen...you could get ran over by a car today and my having HPV sounds like a lot more fun than that.
5/22/2004 1:23:12 AM
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HPV isnt a disease..its the freakin virus that causes warts. EVERYONE GETS WARTS some strands are transferable to your genitals is all. 1 in 3 people have it and dont know it. Infact, i bet that schmuck Jones has it. No way to know till it shows up. Its not a blood disease, its from skin to skin contact. Having it on your cervix is very common, i know at least 4 people who are dealing with it. Its not a widely talked about thing, but trust me its very common,
5/26/2004 11:02:11 AM
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Charles Lowery
I Have Genital Warts i live on 8032 Wabash in Kansas City Mo, 64131 i Need help a.s.a.p
6/19/2004 8:51:32 PM
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Educate yourself there Jones. You can walk around bare foot and get HPV,,but it's a different strain. It's called a Plantar's wart! Did you have chickenpox when you were a kid,,,IT'S A VIRUS! So you're the same as everyone else!!
